MY STORY
In 2017, I opened my YT channel at the age of 14,
making VOCALOID covers and videos. It was a
way I could express my love and interest
to the VOCALOIDs I had met throughout
my childhood. I got lucky during that time
when I made an acapella cover of the
song "Running in the 90's", which resulted
in many users liking it and making their
own versions, using the VSQx
I had provided :]
(TW: mentions of sc, od, sh. Please read at your own risk, you can skip ahead if necessary :])
Unfortunately, believe it or not, the attention was too much
for me to handle at the time, and I had
to step away from all my socials.
During this period of my life, I was
struggling a lot with my mental/physical
health, and had many private issues
that I had to deal with.
Things got nasty and rough, and severe, to a point where I
would ask myself, "What's the point of anything?"
I remember I would count down my days each and every time I would
plan to try and attempt to rest at last, but each time was to no avail.
I would try and find ways to try and feel something, anything, and looking back
I wish I could give myself a hug and tell younger me that it's okay. That things WILL get better,
and that it may seem like hell at the moment, but to never stop doubting.
There are days I still wish I can say that I enjoyed my early teens, and hope
to look back at all the memories I made, but because of how fogged up I was
back then, it's impossible to remember anything, as if my brain erased it
out of existence.
Fortunately, I am in a much
better mindset, and my body is in a
much healthier place :]
The reason I decided to return and
revive my old persona is very simple: my love for VOCALOID
and music never stopped, even while I was away.
I wanted to rebrand, I wanted to make new stuff, I wanted to share all my
creativity and love for other people to see again! I felt that passion that 14 year old me
had at the time starting, and I have never felt more alive than as of now.
And so here we are! I hope I can keep creating my own music, keep creating silly little
drawings and sketches, keep showing my love for what helped me want to live again.
And I hope that I can cheer up someone out there, either it be through my music, videos, or art.
Thank you for reading,
and thank you for giving me a little bit of your time !<3
I hope that today is a good day :]
- iju
In 2017, I opened my YT channel at the age of 14,
making VOCALOID covers and videos. It was a
way I could express my love and interest
to the VOCALOIDs I had met throughout
my childhood. I got lucky during that time
when I made an acapella cover of the
song "Running in the 90's", which resulted
in many users liking it and making their
own versions, using the VSQx
I had provided :]
(TW: mentions of sc, od, sh. Please read at your own risk, you can skip ahead if necessary :])
Unfortunately, believe it or not, the attention was too much
for me to handle at the time, and I had
to step away from all my socials.
During this period of my life, I was
struggling a lot with my mental/physical
health, and had many private issues
that I had to deal with.
Things got nasty and rough, and severe, to a point where I
would ask myself, "What's the point of anything?"
I remember I would count down my days each and every time I would
plan to try and attempt to rest at last, but each time was to no avail.
I would try and find ways to try and feel something, anything, and looking back
I wish I could give myself a hug and tell younger me that it's okay. That things WILL get better,
and that it may seem like hell at the moment, but to never stop doubting.
There are days I still wish I can say that I enjoyed my early teens, and hope
to look back at all the memories I made, but because of how fogged up I was
back then, it's impossible to remember anything, as if my brain erased it
out of existence.
Fortunately, I am in a much
better mindset, and my body is in a
much healthier place :]
The reason I decided to return and
revive my old persona is very simple: my love for VOCALOID
and music never stopped, even while I was away.
I wanted to rebrand, I wanted to make new stuff, I wanted to share all my
creativity and love for other people to see again! I felt that passion that 14 year old me
had at the time starting, and I have never felt more alive than as of now.
And so here we are! I hope I can keep creating my own music, keep creating silly little
drawings and sketches, keep showing my love for what helped me want to live again.
And I hope that I can cheer up someone out there, either it be through my music, videos, or art.
Thank you for reading,
and thank you for giving me a little bit of your time !<3
I hope that today is a good day :]
- iju